Still Waiting

Sunday, August 06, 2006

loneliness.

can you stand loneliness?

im just back from a jog and i saw many things around me and i reflected quite abit. haha..jogs are always meant to be a reflection time for me when i see things and think about it.

i saw this old man when i was walking back just now. he was really old, balding and with white hair, a man in his 60s and 70s.. wearing a neat white short sleevved shirt, tucked into his black long pants with a belt. he was wearing a pair of leather shoes and a watch, which suggested to me that he was rather decent and affluent.

however he was walking alone at 730pm which i think was weird.. and i wondered about him. is he going home now? is he back from his work or back from looking for a job? is he jobless? or has he worked in a certian firm for a many years? is he going home to eat dinner with his lovely wife, or does he even not have one? are his children waiting for him, or the loads of housework waiting for him? maybe he had a wife.. he have children.. but why is he walking alone by the pavement beside the drains? wldnt his children come and fetch him? or is he abandoned?

i feel so sad when i look at him.. i wonder why i always feel so pessimistic when i see old pple.. maybe the old man i saw was once like me, feeling sorry for every eldery he saw. maybe when i grow older, i'll know that growing old is not such a painful and lonely thing.. i will still have my family, my friends and gabriel by my side.. wouldnt i?...

or not?

wldnt it be nice to have your true and good friends around you when you are old.. and chat together abt the gossips going around, the news currently, and best of all, the times we first got together...

it would be nice to grow old with the people you like.

-when are you coming back? ;